by truckeyava | Nov 15, 2021 | Life, Relationships
If you put a fork on the stove top it will become fiercely hot. When you pick it up, your soft, tiny fingers will blister immediately. You remember fingering the filled orbs on your palm every time you set the fork down on the countertop for months after that. You...
by truckeyava | Jun 24, 2021 | Life, Parenting
When I am hungry for my mother, I find myself making a peanut butter and jelly. Not because I remember her making them on homemade bread (she didn’t) or because she made her jam (she didn’t), but because it was her signature love-move. And to be fair, my mother was a...
by truckeyava | Jan 17, 2021 | Life, Parenting, Relationships
This isn’t some Sad Girl blog… Okay, maybe a little. But, like, some things are just sad right now. When I think about things overall, like- My green grapes being shitty because I couldn’t taste them prior to buying (I am turning into my mother), or how I’m...
by truckeyava | Jan 11, 2021 | Uncategorized
2020 haunted me in ways I didn’t know were possible. There was the obvious- A poorly handled pandemic. The one I watched unfurl over my shoulder, as I was privledged enough to shelter myself and my family from the majority of the reality. There was my growing...
by truckeyava | Dec 25, 2020 | Life
Disassociating is my toxic trait. A coping and survival mechanism I adapted as a child, became my go-to Emotion Weapon later on. It aids in the avoidance of feelings of hurt and betrayal, which can be good, but it also makes it challenging for me to maintain...
